I believe God. When thing go wrong, I know he will take the new circumstance and turn it for good. I know if all the armies of hell are aligned against me, that they cannot make God's promises not true. What I struggle with is despair and weariness. The lonliness, feelings of betrayal, desolateness, financial struggles (doubled tithed when I was employed), wondering if I'm not doing if everything I should, loving those who don't love me back or believe in me. This is actually high calling I expect--Jesus walk down this very road. But I do find myself longing for heaven and not knowing how to find happiness here. I know at some point I need to adjust my thinking. I look at other people's lives and they seem to have seasons of richness in their lives. But Hebrews says some never saw their promises fulfilled in this lifetime. I've had decades of unfulfilled promises. So I know the challenge is to know God is the only one who sees everything and to keep believing for salvations and outpourings of his Spirit. But how do others deal with the weariness and sadness of going through life looking at these promises like they are beautiful things behind unbreakable glass?